I just really needed to put my emotions somewhere. I donвЂ™t want attention I just want to vent, I tried calling one of my friends but no answer. I needed to vent somewhere not everybody knows me. And it told me till now to figure it out and now any feeling i had of accomplishment from making my friends happy is immediately taken away. I spent my money on making people happy who ultimately donвЂ™t appreciate what IвЂ™m doing for them. I really thought this Christmas would feel different from the last few, but it dosent. Well not fully alone, I have roommates who happen to be in a relationshipвЂ¦ That makes it better, right? Not! I just sit there looking at their happiness wondering why we canвЂ™t just all hang out instead of it always it being вЂyou two.вЂ™ For a little whileвЂ¦ But then they find someone else who isnвЂ™t me to fill their void and IвЂ™m left aloneвЂ¦ Honestly, I should be used to being alone. My friends either are too busy with their lives to care about mine or in a state where they also need someone so it works out. My familyвЂ™s gotten closer but we are all still so far.

I feel like like I have no one a good 75% of the time and the feeling is generally right, I donвЂ™t have anyone. Stream the new album from Dreamvilles own J.I.D called 'The Never Story. Merry Christmas, I want to slit my wrists. And IвЂ™m talking about even if he was wrong I would swear to everyone that he was right. ItвЂ™s disheartening knowing that I have their back through thick and thin. Someone I to put my soul into, someone who I genuinely care about what they think. But whatвЂ™s even worse is hearing it from you best friend.

I hate feeling like my emotions are justified just for someone to tell you that you are being dramatic or have an attitude.

.i.d вЂ” the never story zip